rl troubles
May. 6th, 2007 09:20 pmWhy can't I ever catch a break? I'm currently jobless and I'm going to be penniless and homeless in a couple of months and it's not because I haven't looked for a job or a place either. The places I've been seeing are either no good or too expensive. The one viable place I saw, I was the second person in line. I was hoping, HOPING that I would get it, but of course with my luck, I didn't. On top of that, I have to stay in school for an extra year to finish up my degree and I have to pay for it all on my own. This wouldn't be too much of a problem if I could just get a decent job or any job. It's so frustrating and I'm just tired of having shitty luck all the time. I just want to have things go my way at least once. Too many crappy (small and sometimes large) things have happened to me for me not to believe in luck. Yuck! Probabilities say that I'm bound to have some good luck right? Hasn't happened yet. I'd rather have no luck at all. Maybe I'm being superstitious, but I can't help how I feel. Anyway, so I'm feeling emo and depressed right now. And all I can think of is that Smiths' song.
"Good times for a change
see, the luck I've had
can make a good man
turn bad
So please please please
let me, let me, let me
let me get what I want
this time
Haven't had a dream in a long time
see, the life I've had
can make a good man bad
So for once in my life
let me get what I want
Lord knows it would be the first time
Lord knows it would be the first time"
Emo right? There are people with far worse situations than mine and I'm wallowing in self pity. I just need today to wallow in it before I move on with my week.
"Good times for a change
see, the luck I've had
can make a good man
turn bad
So please please please
let me, let me, let me
let me get what I want
this time
Haven't had a dream in a long time
see, the life I've had
can make a good man bad
So for once in my life
let me get what I want
Lord knows it would be the first time
Lord knows it would be the first time"
Emo right? There are people with far worse situations than mine and I'm wallowing in self pity. I just need today to wallow in it before I move on with my week.